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Mother's Day

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Hi Friends,

Mother's Day fast approacheth, and you might guess that this is going to be a bit of a challenging weekend for me. Not only with Mother's Day, but there are multiple other activities not related to that (birthdays, concerts, and such) that are making it busy too.

I'm nervous. My family has never really made a big deal of Mother's Day, but it's around. Facebook posts, special flowers in church, roses at the grocery store... And this is the first year I consider myself a mother, and it's in such a hard way.

Last year, I was pregnant on Mother's Day. At the time, I did not consider myself a mother (now, in hindsight, I do believe that I was already a mom. But at the time, since I didn't have a "babe in arms", I didn't think of myself as one). I spent the day with my family, and since my husband was working, I went to church with my family. They were going to a neighboring town, where my littlest sister was playing violin with the…

The Adventures of Pookie - Welcome!

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Hi Friends!

I believe I've mentioned our bear before, but I wanted to give you the whole story.

Last fall, I found out about a program called Molly Bears (www.mollybears.org). This organization makes teddy bears that are the exact same weight as the baby you lost (there are some other organizations that make weighted bears as well, but this one was the first one I encountered). They have a long wait list, so they only add a certain number each month, and then there is a 6-8 MONTH wait. All the bears are made by volunteers. They do have certain options for bumping yourself higher on the list, and I happened to win one. When you place your order, you tell them a few things about your baby. We mentioned that he bounced like a Tigger and is now our little tiger, and we included his full name (Charles Peacock, if you'll recall).

On December 23rd, 2016, I got a very heavy priority mail box! I knew right away what was in it.
Here is our little guy, brand new:


Even though …

Infant Loss Resources

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Hi Friends,

I realized the link to the resource spreadsheet was long and cumbersome. So I created a short-link that still gets you there! Please share freely with anyone who needs it.
www.tinyurl.com/infantloss

Most sincerely yours,
~ Sarah

What Do I Say?

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**** THIS IS MY OWN EXPERIENCE AND BASED ON MY OWN PREFERENCES ****

Dear Friends,

You are in a conversation, and somehow it comes up that the person you are talking to has just recently had a close family member die. Ooof, that's terrible. Furthermore, let's say that it was their child. What do you say now?

Well, I don't know all situations, but as you know, I recently had my son die at nearly 41 weeks of pregnancy, and then was induced to give birth to him (a normal pregnancy lasts between 38 and 42 weeks). So he is considered stillborn. When I mention this to people, things often get awkward. And that's ok. It is a stupidly awkward thing for my son to have died. And it sucks. Some people say they don't know what to say. And that's ok, too. However, if you say that, please make sure that whatever comes out of your mouth next is something you have thought about and is kind.

Since I have experienced a variety of responses, some more awkward than others, and some…

Sometimes, I Cry

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Dear Friends,

Today has been a roller-coaster of emotion. I want to talk to you about that, actually. I am speaking purely from my own experience, and everyone grieves differently. That said, I am guessing that I'm not the only one who has experienced something like this...

The day is fine, but there are little things. And they add up. And suddenly, in the evening, nothing goes right or you suddenly find yourself crying and aren't sure why.

What happened today is that I was basically having a good day, but a few little potholes of emotion or frustration or worry or something happened, and I guess I didn't take time with those feelings as they happened, or, at least not as much as those feelings wanted to be noticed. So they piled up. And that meant that I felt blindsided by the emotions when they took over and I turned into a melty teary mess this evening.

I'll give you some examples of what happened today, so you can see how they might be inconsequential or minor when i…

Shoes for 18" Molly Bears

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Hi Everyone,

I have finally finished a project I'd like to share!

Molly Bears (Link to Website) is a wonderful organization that creates bears that are the same weight as the infant you lost.

We received our bear on the December 23rd, 2016, and ever since then he has been a comfort to hold, cuddle, and dress. Yes, I like to dress him sometimes. Not every day, but sometimes it's nice to have someone little to care for. Also, I like to take pictures and text his adventures to my husband!


Soon after I started looking for clothes for Pookie, I noticed that shoes were going to be a serious problem. His feet are not shaped like human feet, so baby shoes don't work, and they are much larger than the bear shoes you can find at certain stores in the mall.

So I have been working on developing a pattern for shoes, which you can see the final version of in the picture above! And I JUST FINISHED THE PATTERN!

Since I know anyone with a Molly Bear has experienced a loss, and I doubt I’m …

Blog Name Change from Clothespress to Charlie's Mama

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Hi Friends,

Today I'm going to be changing a few things around here.

First of all, to allay any fears, I will STILL BE POSTING ABOUT CLOTHING AND FIBER ARTS!!!! I love doing that waaaaay too much to give that up!

But as you may have been starting to suspect, I have had some very major changes in my life in the past year, and have been working on figuring out how to integrate that into my online ventures. Namely, I was pregnant, and I had a beautiful little boy, who died 2 days before I gave birth to him.
- I will be renaming the blog in his honor.- I will begin including posts about various aspects of life post- baby loss.- I will include posts about resources for Loss Mamas and Loss Papas. And I would like to tell the story of my son, Charles Peacock Warner (Charlie), my beloved little boy.

In October 2015, we found out that I was pregnant! We were very excited. The little one was due in June, 2016. This was my first pregnancy, and was going to be the first grandkid on both sides! The…